I've been called worse.

Look, I don’t know what family is. And no, I won’t tell you my stupid sob story cause who fucking cares? But you know, this is my home and it is nice to experience what it means to have someone there for you no matter what. It’s a nice feeling to know that you are not as alone as you might have thought. I don’t believe that I am loved, no and I don’t mean to make a big thing out of it because that’s just me, that’s what is stuck in my system- but you know, I just like to belong. I can’t just let it be, because I am sick of feeling lost. That’s about it. Cayne will be alright, it’s not all that bad, just…sometimes.

I’m not trying to be mean, Bells. Honestly. I just don’t know how to be nice. I don’t know how to care. I don’t fucking know how to feel anything. I ruin everything I touch. The only people that don’t seem to get fucked up in the cross fire are Grace an Sam. Hell, even Ashton doesn’t really talk to me anymore. I lost Ashton. What’s the point in getting close to anyone else when the only person that I ever felt anything for is gone? It’s just, what, Bella? You like Dion? Is that it?

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Sun, 19 May 2013 00:20:06 -0400

arabella-van-allen: I don’t think you can do wrong when it comes to that whole sibling thing,...

Sun, 19 May 2013 00:13:26 -0400

I don’t think you can do wrong when it comes to that whole sibling thing, things are just the way they are. You don’t need to see me as a sister or something and you don’t need to apologize, I don’t want you to feel weird just because I am trying. But you guys are the only family I ever had and I’d do everything for you, so there’s that. Yeah…I think he has some problems with his anger and all that.

See, for me, my family line ended the day my grandma was killed. That’s where we’re all so different, isn’t it? You and Charlie hold on because you’ve got nobody else. Matt, he’s still got his dad, but he’s so hung up on Abby he doesn’t know what to do but reassure himself that somebody still loves him. Even if it’s his family. And Sam, he just simply let’s it be, that’s why I love him the best. That’s why despite it all, he’s always going to be my family. Cayne should work on that anger though.

grace-jones: Fake mean is better than real mean. You’re pretty cool yourself, definitely best...

Sun, 19 May 2013 00:09:38 -0400

Fake mean is better than real mean. You’re pretty cool yourself, definitely best friend material. Olympus boys should turn into male strippers, then I wouldn’t question anything in the world anymore.

I’d like to think so. But hey, we don’t have to decide on that today. That would be nice, we could have all the guys all the time and life would have meaning again.

grace-jones: No you’re not. You’re not mean to Sam. Well, duh because Channing Tatum is everybody’s...

Sat, 18 May 2013 23:59:51 -0400

No you’re not. You’re not mean to Sam. Well, duh because Channing Tatum is everybody’s type. And yes, but only if we have ice cream too.

And I’m only fake mean to you. You’re like the closest I’ve ever gotten to a best friend, I wouldn’t be real mean to you. Of course we can have ice cream, it’s a must when there’s that much sexy on the screen.

avery—shields replied to your post: avery—shields replied to your post they made...

Sat, 18 May 2013 23:45:36 -0400

avery—shields replied to your post: avery—shields replied to your post they made me…

you’re the best and the worst at the same time i cry

i know bb, i know.

grace-jones: That’s mean Bridget. Maybe Magic Mike is more my kind of dancing though. I’m...

Sat, 18 May 2013 23:45:02 -0400

That’s mean Bridget. Maybe Magic Mike is more my kind of dancing though.

I’m always mean, Grace. I think Magic Mike is everybody’s type of dancing. Can we watch that after?

avery—shields replied to your post they made me miss tsc u guys hurt me GOOD

Sat, 18 May 2013 23:36:21 -0400

avery—shields replied to your post

they made me miss tsc u guys hurt me

GOOD

Sat, 18 May 2013 23:32:08 -0400

Sat, 18 May 2013 23:30:29 -0400

grace-jones: All of the above? Can we watch Silver Linings Playlist because I’m totally convinced I...

Sat, 18 May 2013 23:28:39 -0400

All of the above? Can we watch Silver Linings Playlist because I’m totally convinced I will be Tiffany in three years.

We can totally do that. Whatever you want to do, honestly. You’re not going to end up like Tiffany! You’d never be able to pull of those dance moves.

arabella-van-allen: If you ever want to drink with somebody…I like drinking, too. Uh- yes, he found...

Sat, 18 May 2013 23:21:16 -0400

If you ever want to drink with somebody…I like drinking, too. Uh- yes, he found it out, well I told him. And he wanted me to tell him who it was but I refused to tell him, I’m actually suprised he didn’t look for you like he wanted to. Because you know who it was and all, but yeah don’t know, we didn’t fix it yet but I haven’t seen him in a few days now, maybe it’s for the better.

I know, I’m sorry. I suck at the whole sibling thing. Sam’s easy. We both hermit and it’s great. But you, Matt, and Charlie you try and it’s weird. I don’t get why he’s so upset. It’s not like you like Dion.

grace-jones: Sometimes, when I think too much I get really bad headaches. I just feel sick, that’s...

Sat, 18 May 2013 23:17:44 -0400

Sometimes, when I think too much I get really bad headaches. I just feel sick, that’s all.

Need some soup? Movie night? Cuddles?

grace-jones: Do you ever feel really stupid about shit you’ve done and it makes you want to throw...

Sat, 18 May 2013 23:08:31 -0400

Do you ever feel really stupid about shit you’ve done and it makes you want to throw up… or is that just me?

What’s wrong?

arabella-van-allen: So you had a good time around here, huh? With someone else? With myself. So...

Sat, 18 May 2013 23:03:16 -0400

So you had a good time around here, huh? With someone else?

With myself. So tell me, Bells. Cayne ever find out about that kiss?

tommybryan: You still haven’t answered my question about now. I didn’t? Silly me. I thought...

Sat, 18 May 2013 23:02:30 -0400

You still haven’t answered my question about now.

I didn’t? Silly me. I thought I did.

tommybryan: Does this angry have anything to do with me? Sometimes it does.

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:09:02 -0400

Does this angry have anything to do with me?

Sometimes it does.

tommybryan: I dunno. You just seem angry. I’m always angry about something, Tommy.

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:05:52 -0400

I dunno. You just seem angry.

I’m always angry about something, Tommy.

tommybryan: Thanks, Bridget. You’re not, like, mad at me or anything, are you? Why would I be...

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:02:03 -0400